Thank You Teacher For Helping My Son Fail…….Grrrrrrrr!

As you all know my youngest Jaiden has ADHD and has a lot of issues in school. School is a struggle but he is getting better. Jaiden is in fourth grade, He has a home room teacher Mrs P. and then He switches to another teacher Ms.M for science and reading. Jaiden has other issues besides ADHD, he has issues with visual and audio processing. Which means he cant process information he sees or hears as fast as a normal student.  Remember back in my post about ADHD i told you he had a 1st grade teacher that failed at her job  and made him a year behind, then he had two wonderful teachers in 2nd and 3rd grade that worked really hard on helping him and trying to catch him up.  Jaiden has extreme behaviors. if he gets frustrated or thinks the work is too hard he shuts down gets angry. Due to this and his learning disabilities we have a IEP (individual education plan) and a BIP (behavior intervention plan) in place to try to help him and the teacher deal with these issues and behavioral problems. 

Now I know jaiden can be a handful and I am all about working with the teacher and making sure together we can  help jaiden succeed. Every year we go over with his new teachers exactly what is expected of jaiden. We also go over the best ways to accomplish dealing with him and getting him to do what he needs to get done to pass his classes. Jaiden is not allowed to be disrespectful to any of the adults that are trying to help him. It still happens every once in awhile (nobody is perfect) and his consequence is he has to write the adult a letter apologizing for being disrespectful and how he should have handled the situation different/better.  

So Jaiden has been doing well in his home room with Mrs.P. He is passing her classes with 80’s and 90’s. He still has behaviors in there but gets over them quickly when redirected and allowed time to process what he has to do. I have told his teachers since the beginning of school, if jaiden is getting frustrated or shutting down with work to let him go out in the hallway and take a break. This gives him time to calm himself and reset to go in and try again. If it continues to be a issue to not push him just stop what they are doing and send the work home, and we will work on it at home then return it the next day. Ms.M apparently decided to deal with jaiden her own way.  In the beginning of the year jaiden was doing good and had no issues a few behaviors here and there but easily redirected.  I only heard about behavior issues in Ms.M’s room from either the assistant principal (phone call, when its went off the rails) or by email (A disciplinary note). I noticed a lot of these behaviors were in Ms.M’s room or under her supervision. 

I told Sean in the end of January that I felt something more was going on in regards to his behavior in her room. He thought it was Jaiden just being defiant. Well  in February Jaiden had some extreme behavior in her room then he went in the hallway to calm down. While in the hall he was climbing on stuff, crawling around on the floor etc. Well this is odd he had never done that type of stuff when in the hall to calm down. So of course I received a call from the assistant principal. Sean ended up going up there and getting after jaiden telling him this behavior is unacceptable.  When I got home I talked to jaiden about what had happened and why he was acting that way. He said he was mad! I said to him you can be angry but you can not act like a fool. He said that his teacher ripped up his paper. I honestly did not believe a teacher would rip up a students paper in front of them. He said when he got made she sent him in to the hall and then dad showed up.

We talked about ways he could have handled that differently. He was grounded to his room for 4 days as punishment. Jaiden had two issues in february and then a issue in march in her room. Ms.M has only been in contact with me 3 times in regards to jaidens behavior and they have been in the last 2 months. And they weren’t phone calls they were in a app called Class Dojo. Just texts, On march 23rd she messaged me and said she had tried to call both Sean and I and had left messages for us on our phones. Well neither Sean or I had any calls from her or any message. This was because a behavior issue that had happened with jaiden that morning. I asked what numbers she called. She said she had used the numbers on jaidens file. (well everyone else calls us on those numbers and have no problem getting us). So last week Jaiden came home with a progress report, he is passing in Mrs.P’s class and he is failing in Ms.M’s class. He has her for reading (71 barely passing) and science (53 WTF!!).  A fucking 53 in science!!!! I have not heard one word from her about jaiden failing her class. 

Well this had me very irritate,  How come she has not contacted me about his grade?! Jaiden is not allowed to refuse work, if he doesn’t do it in class it is to come home so I can make him do it and return it. So this don’t make sense. I obviously felt that there was a issue with her I honestly don’t think her and jaiden get a long at all. I think their personalities clash which is a problem. So last week Tuesday I called the asst. principal and told him my concerns in Ms.M’s class in regards to jaiden. I told him I was upset about her not contacting me about jaidens grade. And the fact that almost all the behavioral issues happen in her class. He stated he would look into it. Mind you that this means when she texted in Class DOJO on the 23rd the Asst Principal had already talked with her. So this Monday Jaiden brought his report card home and at the bottom there is a note that says “contact Ms.M about jaidens grade in science”. 

When report cards come home we have to sign the envelope and send it back, well I left a nice note on it saying I had contacted the asst. principal last week and had not heard from Ms.M or him in regards to jaidens grade in science. Yesterday I get a message for Ms.M in class dojo, here’s what it said:

“I just received the note on Jaidens report card. When I tried to call you last week I wanted to talk to you about jaidens grades as well. He is failing because of his behaviors. When he shuts down he is missing work because he leaves my classroom. When he calms down it typically takes about a hour before he comes back and depending on when that happens it could be once my class is over meaning he has missed reading and science for the day. I have made it a point to reach out to you whenever he is having these shut downs. He also has several zeros from missing homework. Homework is sent home on Monday and is due by friday. There is no way to make this up, we give them every opportunity to ask for help and they have 4 days to complete 6-8 questions. He needs to be in class and actively working in order to pass. Work can not always be sent home. Mrs Jackson and I do absolutely everything in our power to help him one on one but if its something he doesn’t want to do he shuts down before we even begin. I’am always open to suggestions on how to keep him in class and working.”

OKay let me break this down for you…….

” When I called you last week I wanted to talk to you about his grades as well”  really because while you were texting me you did not say one word about his grades, nor did you ask me to call you to talk about his grades.  

“He is failing because of his behaviors. When he shuts down he is missing work because he leaves my classroom. When he calms down it typically takes about a hour before he comes back and depending on when that happens it could be once my class is over meaning he has missed reading and science for the day.”  A hour to calm down?? no wonder he is climbing all over and crawling on the floor. What do you expect a kid with ADHD to do in a hall way for a hour. His IEP specifically says he can go out in the hall for 5-10 mins 15 mins max to calm down and then he is to come back in and try again. If he shuts down again he is to move on to something else and that work is to be sent home. 

 “I have made it a point to reach out to you whenever he is having these shut downs. He also has several zeros from missing homework”.  What!! Yes she only reaches out for behavior issues. And what homework?? He hasn’t brought any home. Sean and Jaiden sit down and do homework together and there hasn’t been any science homework. And yes that would be jaidens responsibility but we can not hold jaiden accountable if we are not told he isn’t returning homework. 

“There is no way to make this up, we give them every opportunity to ask for help and they have 4 days to complete 6-8 questions.”  That’s just fantastic we cant make up any of the homework that you fail to reach out to me to tell me it was not being turned in. Seriously!! What is he supposed to ask? he is not in the class and is not doing the homework. And she is not concerned one bit, not until its 3 months before the end of the school year.

“He needs to be in class and actively working in order to pass.” DUH!! No shit! 

“Work can not always be sent home.” Yes it can! She says this because they sometimes work in groups or with partners. If that’s the case he can do it all by himself or you can give him a different assignment worth the same points. 

“Mrs Jackson (co-teacher)  and I do absolutely everything in our power to help him one on one but if its something he doesn’t want to do he shuts down before we even begin.”  No you don’t do everything in your power. First, she has not reached out at any time to tell me he was not turning in homework. Second, she has not sent any unfinished class work home. Third, He shuts down because he don’t know the material because he is missing time in the class because your letting him sit in the hallway for a hour, and he is obviously not doing the homework!!!! How can he do anything in that class??

Besides the fact we have went over how to redirect jaiden when he shuts down before they even begin (which would be refusal to do work). Not to mention she could ask his homeroom teacher who obviously is good at getting him to work despite behaviors. And if it is happening that much why are you not asking to meet with us to fix the problem!! No lets just ignore the problem.  As you can tell I am extremely upset with this teacher. I dont understand why she decided not to reach out to us earlier. She has had plenty opportunity to talk to us about it. Nothing was said at his parent teacher conference, nothing was said at his ARD Meeting ( this is where we go over his interventions and any problems needing attention) this was just in January. Nope nothing said or done.

So after all this I called the Asst principal again and told him I want a meeting with her and him and the principal Thursday because this is not acceptable.  I talked to my sister about it I hadn’t even said anything but “jaiden has Ms.M”…..and my niece who is in the same class with jaiden chimes in that she doesn’t like Ms. M she is really mean. She said that one day jaiden and some other kids were drawing on the backs of their papers. Mr.M comes over and tells them in a mean tone 4th grader shouldn’t be drawing. And they all got in trouble and then she tore up jaidens paper in front of him, which made him mad and he left the room. That was the day uncle Sean came up there she says. And she said there was a girl that got in trouble with them that wasn’t doing anything.

Then my sister said my niece Ashlyn had Ms.M in first grade and she didn’t like her either and would always come home and tell her Ms.M is mean and yells at them all day. So two more kids that don’t have behavioral issues saying that this teacher is mean.  Everything is starting to make sense. I believe she is mean and rude and jaiden is pushing back against her. I honestly think she is purposely making him angry then he will storm out and she don’t have to deal with him. Out of sight out of mind.  So now Ms.M has put my son behind in science and reading (he struggles very hard with reading he is dyslexic).  I am looking forward to this meeting tomorrow, I hate teachers like this with a passion.

So I feel like this teacher has helped my son fail. And she has failed as a teacher.  Jaiden is responsible for his behavior, but his behavior is to be expected with the circumstances surrounding them.  I recently watched a webinar on how to deal with difficult kids, you know the ones that push you until you want to pull your hair out. You yell, you nag, and nothing with their behavior changes its war all the time. It was on a site called Positive Parenting Solutions, there were many great points. ( here’s the link http://www.positiveparentingsolutions.com/ )

The Lady that does the webinar says kids that feel blame, shame, or pain when your speaking with them will not hear what you say they will only react to how they feel. Which it going to be anger, and that causes the behavior to escalate. She also says personality clashes fuel power struggles, and that misbehavior is never just a kid problem. And I can totally see this with jaiden. I can see how he reacts to Ms.M compared to Ms. P. I also see it at home in how I react to him If i scream and yell it causes a melt down and more headache. If I am calm and speak in a calm tone it is easier to calm him down. I hope with this meeting I can make her (Ms.M) understand jaidens brain. If she doesn’t get it I am going to remove him from her class. 

So that’s my rant for today!! Sorry it is so long, I didn’t even realize it was getting so long. Well I hope you all have a great day. Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Catch y’all Later!

Clean house and sore thigh…..how was your weekend?

I remember why I hate exercise, IT HURTS!! I didn’t even exercise though. I cleaned my house.  Since the older kids went back to Florida and we switched rooms around, the upstairs has been a disaster.  Of course nobody touches anything until mom is screaming and pointing, “why is this out here?”, and “Is this your mess?” Or the famous “I thought I asked you to put those clothes away, that’s NOT where they go!”  I usually work 5, 6, sometimes 7 days a week, usually 12 hours but sometimes 16 hours. I don’t really have a  lot of time to do anything when I get home. Which really sucks, if I get out on time I go home and my little boys go to bed about a hour later. My daughter is usually at work or in her room studying( yeah right watching YouTube!). My son jaxson is in his room because now he don’t have to share it with his two little brothers.

My house is clean but it is lived in. My kids are not the cleanliest kids. Sean and I have to constantly remind them to pick up their crap. They are getting better but they need to make a little more of a effort. I don’t have chores for them because I want them to concentrate on their school work. Of course when we ask them to do something we expect them to do it without the usually “ugh moooom Im tired”. Yeah they have no freaking clue what tired is!! Try my schedule, I would love to go back to their age. HAHA NOT!!! But come on…..their tired. They need to go to work with their dad see what it really feels like to be tired. He runs a construction company we own. Lots of manual labor! 

So I only had one day off this week and that was Saturday. I got up and started downstairs. Cleaning up this and that, vacuuming, getting laundry going, you know how it is. I then worked up the stairs. The stairs look like they haven’t been vacuumed since the turn of the century. I swear I vacuumed up five small chihuahuas, and six dust bunny families. Oh and at least 12,436 legos!! As i came up to the top of the stairs I just took a deep breath and let it out slow. I start by picking up a bunch of trash. You know the hidden, “ha ha they wont find this here”, or the “oh I will throw it away when i go by the trash can so I will put it here where it can fall on the floor and get kicked under the couch” kinda trash. 

While I am out doing that Jaxson comes and tells me how laggy his games are on the wifi. For all you that dont play video games that when the game slows down really slow and then will go fast to catch up, like slow to respond when you’re trying to play. to which I respond Grand what do you want me to do? He says “hard wire it”. WTF do i look like the cable guy? LOL just kidding I can do it! So we had to brave the mangled mess of extra wire (ethernet) to find one long enough to run from his room in to the modem. It was a good distance. I had to run it along the trim and up and around some doors. I used my handy dandy staple gun to hold it in place. And of course when I needed a extra hand I had to yell for my son who wasn’t helping me!! He came up once and said “Yeah mom what do you want?” WHAT DO I WANT? I want you to do this!! I want you here so if I need help I dont have to yell for you I am doing this for you anyways its the least you could do. He said oh ok sorry mom!

So we hard wired that, then I made sure the TV in the living room area was hooked up correctly…..and it wasn’t. I have a surround sound that is supposed to be on that TV it was just laying on the floor. Well let me explain when the bigger kids were here they moved things around, hooked up game consoles and unhook game consoles. Sean took my old TV stand and refurbished it. It looks amazing of course, he is so handy! He built me a bookcase that I put next to the TV for the boys game controllers and the charging stations. I rearranged the furniture back to the way I had it before, MAAAN! it looked great up there. There was still a lot of room for me to put my exercise equipment up there.

When I set up my surround sound it was super dusty, probably the cousins of the other dust bunny families I took out earlier. I tried to see if it would play a movie and it would not read the damn disk. So I thought what the hell I am going to take it apart to see if it was just dirty or if it was just broken. So I get the top off and open up the disk player and look inside. It has about 7 disks in it!!! oh lord I know my sons dont do this shit anymore had to be my nieces. There was a couple girl movies and a chucky cheese music CD. My kids ruined so much shit when they were little. Jaxson kill a brand new TV one time, I was so pissed. He was about two years old, he kept turning it on and off. I told him to stop but every time I left the room he would do it again. So i would have to do the whole yell from the kitchen JAXSON STOP THAT!! So I could hear the TV on but when I walked in the living room the fucking thing was BLACK!! No freaking picture, just sound!! NO omg you killed the TV!!

It was one of those old TV’s the had the tube in them. I could of got it fixed but it would have cost me more to fix then if I went out and bought a new one. But I was a single mom of two kids could not afford another one. Bummer!! Luckily we had a extra one, yeah a 26″ ugh from a 38″ to damn 26″. But anyway I took all the disks out cleaned it up and tried again. And yay it worked! I was so happy it wasn’t ruined. So i busted my ass and it looks great, but man the next day… shit the next 2 days my back and ass and thighs were so sore. Like I had ran a fucking marathon! I have never felt so old!! Except the time my kid asked me what a pay phone was…. Oh My! It hurt worse every time I tried to sit down. I looked like a patient fresh out of hemorrhoid surgery.  Muscles in my thighs that I didn’t know I even had hurt. Sean and I have been walking a mile every night when I get home from work, well not those nights!!

You know it was worth it because I got a lot done in my house. Well I thought I posted this monday but it was still in draft! Oopsie!! Well i hope y’all had a grand weekend! Catch y’all later!

 

Jacksepticeye

Jacksepticeye!!! Who is this, you ask? Well let me take you back to the first time I heard about Jacksepticeye. I had come home from a long day at work, My mother who lives with me pulled me aside and said I really need to check what my son Jaxson is watching on YouTube.  So I go in the kitchen and Jax is watching YouTube on a tablet. I really didn’t say much,  Just listened all the sudden I hear “OH FOOK WHAT IS THAT?” I said JAXSON!! what are you watching?  He says Jacksepticeye!! I said Well whatever you just said sound very inappropriate. Jaxson was about I think 12 ( i think my memory isn’t great lol). 

He said “mom you have to come watch this!” and warning mom he says a lot of bad words. So I sit down next to him and I said well since he says a lot of bad word lets put in head phones that way no little ears or grandma ears have to listen. So that’s what we did. I spent the next 3 hours watching Jacksepticeye with Jax. I have to tell you it was hilarious!! Yes he does curse quite a bit but not any more than jaxson had ever heard come out of his own parents mouths. Jacksepticeye is a Irish youtuber that plays video games and also provides a colorful commentary for these video games.

Jacksepticeye’s real name is Sean McLoughlin. He is Irish so he is loud and talks really fast like Irish people do! That’s one or the reasons Jaxson likes him. We have irish blood in us, I am not sure how much. Maybe we should do a ancestry test. My great grand father came from Ireland as far as I know. They settled in Massachusetts. Jacksepticeye has pretty funny game play videos and vlogs. I think the reason people like him so much is because he is just so genuine. All his reactions are real and just genuine. In his vlogs you really get to see his amazing personality.  This dude has 18.4 million subscribers on YouTube!! He is obviously doing something right!  So I obviously let Jaxson continue to watch him, with headphones in at all times. I have watched several of his game plays and vlogs too. They are really entertaining. 

Sean, me and Jax

So about 15-16 days ago Jaxson text me to let me know that Jacksepticeye was going to be in Austin for a tour that he is doing. OMG!! I was so excited. So I talked to my Sean about getting tickets. They were decently priced I got floor seats for $40 a piece. Well The show was last night! Sean, Jaxson and myself went. It was the coolest show ever. He talked about really great things not just shit about video games. He talked about his childhood in Ireland, Teenage-hood, and adult hood. the tour is called “How did we get here?’. 

He talked about life, how life throws some really unfair crap at you and how like playing a video game you got to battle though it. I wont say much more about it because you really should go see it for yourself. He has a way of getting across to so many teens the are really having a hard time with life. He is truthful, and fun even when it is a serious subject. He did have kids up on stage and did some really neat things. It was very down to earth, funny, and motivational. If any of those kids walked away understanding anything he talked about he has done them a great service.

“Jack” AKA Sean

He is always talking about PMA ( Positive Mental Attitude) in his videos. At the end of the show he took A few questions from his fans. They were all incredibly heart warming and some were very funny. There was one from a kid asking jack for advice on how to deal with assholes bullying because she was gay and had a girlfriend…This kids was also crying.  The whole crowd started chanting PMA! PMA! PMA! Jack was so sweet, basically saying unfortunately he doesn’t have a personal experience like this kid. He said as long as you’re ok with who you are what they all think doesn’t matter. He knows that sounds so cliche’ but it really is true. He also said I know this sounds cliche too but when you get thru this in a few years none of that will matter and it will get better. And once you become a adult and you look back and know you made it through you will be super proud of who you are and who you’ve become. HE said even if they never accept you, you have this whole community(pointing at the audience) that accept and  care for you! The place went nuts! It really was a site to see, so happy i got to experience that with my son and all the amazing people there.

Thank you for taking the time to read this! Go watch some jacksepticeye!!  Also check out my sons gaming YouTube channel EmpireGaming SO if you liked this blog post today please do what Jacksepticeye always says at the end of his videos…..

ADHD: The 4 Letters That Set Me Free

I am re-blogging this post. I know a lot of ADHD parents that will completely understand where she is coming from. It always feels good to not feel alone when dealing with stressful situations with ADHD kids. Moms of kids with special need are amazing people because nit is so very difficult especial dealing with people who have no clue what its like.

KristineKohut.net

The psychiatrist said, “You can’t parent ADHD out of a child,” and I wept.

Why? Because this one fact re-wrote my entire history as a parent: It’s brain chemistry. No behavior management skill can undo ADHD.

He released me from all the condemnation, both from myself and others.

It wasn’t my fault.

As I now journey backwards through various moments in parenting, I can see myself and my boys with new eyes. Come with me.

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My natural tendency is to blame myself first. It doesn’t take much to make me confirm my self-blame at the heart level. A comment by somebody who I respect. A dirty look from a stranger. Even without knowing it, I’m looking for somebody to say, “Yes, you’re to blame,” and that sticks for a long time.

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I knew I was going to be an amazing parent. So much so…

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Stressed spelled backwards is Desserts…yep that’s my problem

How do you not be stressed in life?!! This is something I need to figure out. I work a ton, I don’t have time for much. I cant save a dime, even if my life depended on it. Things that should be a happy moment are engulfed in unbelievable stress and anxiety for me. It doesn’t help that it is shark week very very soon. So hormones are way outta whack. What would be probably completely easy for me to handle, is now insanity in  my mind.

I am worried that my daughter Faith who is graduating and leaving for college in the fall will be needing me to help her and I wont be able too. I fear they will look at my income and saying that she will not get the help she needs to pay for her college career. I have a beautiful step daughter Charleigh in Florida that is graduating in May. Sean and I have to go to Florida and I am freaking out because it is going to be tough to get there. Sean and I wanted to take our whole family but we just cant afford to do that. I make good money but I live pay check to pay check. I barely make it through the month to month crap right now. There is no way I would be able to help Faith and I hope we can figure out how to make it to Charleighs. Which makes me feel like a horrible parent.

All these emotions and hormone wackiness doesn’t help control my WOE. When its shark week and I am extremely fatigued, irritable and my body craves carbs, sugar, and

mmmmm sugar

comfort foods. I definitely was no where near what i should of ate yesterday. I wish I wasn’t like this. Why cant I have the metabolism that just burns right thru all the crap? Why do I associate food to feelings? WHY does it have to taste SO GOOD?

I know I can fight through this but I think that when the stress and anxiety are overwhelming I need something to relieve it. I just have to figure out something other than food. Walking with Sean at night when I get home from work helps a lot. I know planning my meals all week would help but sometimes I just don’t have the time or the money to accomplish that. I have read that if you have intense cravings it could be from a deficiency in some vitamins and minerals. I will have to really look into this because if that will help I am going have to get some supplements.

I hate it when I feel this way. I almost feel defeated. I know I just need to pull up my big girl panties ( or granny panties which ever lol) and deal with it. I will try to be more positive and stop letting the stress of life bring me down.  Thank you for reading my rant today.  We will see what tomorrow holds, tomorrow!

 

Egg fast day 4….4 days late SORRY!!

Hey y’all!! Sorry this is so late. I was so busy at work Thursday, I didn’t even get a chance to scroll through Facebook!!! ( I am sure I didn’t miss much lol) My little sister Megan flew in from Maryland Thursday to spend her spring break with us. I was so excited to see her. My weekend was spent with my kids and my sister and our family. I took that time to enjoy the moment. Not on my phone or a computer but just enjoying the face to face time with the people I love. I did my egg fast as normal on Thursday. I did regular Keto Friday, Saturday( I did have a few non Keto things this day due to it being St Patricks day but i did not go over board) and Sunday. 

I weighed myself on Friday like I told you I would…..ready……. 223.6 lbs. WOW right!! so from Monday 235.8 to Friday 223.6, a 12.2 lbs loss. That’s amazing!! I am restarting the Egg Fast again but probably not until Wednesday( i need time to make some egg muffins again) Today I had 3 fried eggs and 2 sausage patty’s for breakfast and I am having some corn beef and cabbage for my next meal. I am still doing the 18/6 (18 hour fast/ 6 hour eating window) eating schedule. I really am not hungry until around 2 pm. Which is surprising because I used to always feel like I was starving.  Sean And I are still doing our walking and plan on doing it tomorrow( I don’t get out of work tonight until late).  So more to come tomorrow! Hopefully something a little more exciting than today’s post!

Egg Fast Day 3….Oh I feel a revolt coming on…..

Egg Fast day 3!! Oh i feel a revolt happening in my body. My body is kinda going into a state of shock. Low carb and no sugar in 3 days, My head is starting to ache, my back is hurting…..I think Keto Flu maybe setting in. So last night when I got home Sean and I went for our walk, we did  a mile in 22 mins. We weren’t trying to break any records on time. But hopefully by doing it more often we can get faster and a longer distance. We are planing on doing it every night. It was nice because we got to talk about a lot of things going on in our lives. Sean is starting his own Construction/Handyman company. So we were talking about how to market said company and different ways to pull in clients. We talked about adoption. Sean and I both would have loved to have a child together. We have 8 kids, 4 of which are his and 4 of which are mine. Unfortunately He and I are both fixed and cant have any children together. If we had $7000 we could do IVF ( have them go in and get his sperm and my egg and implant it) but we cant afford that.

So we were talking about the next best thing Adoption. But I will write a post about that at another time. Today has went well, I got 20 jumping jacks, 20 pushups, 20 squats x2 done. YAY ME! I had to take some ibuprofen for my head and back ache. It is feeling much better. I have got 5 bottles of water in so far.  I ate the last of my egg muffins today I am going to have to find some more egg recipes for the rest of this week. I know I said I wasn’t going to get on the scale until Friday but I couldn’t resist this morning and I almost fell off it……..drum roll please….226.4…..4 more pounds!! That’s only 27 more and I will be at my goal before May. If i do then (I’M Bada$$) I will set a new goal. That will be so amazing to me, I think I will buy a new outfit just for the trip. I will probably need one LOL!  And i have to try stay away from the crack scale lol!!

I have noticed some cramps today. Cramping in my calf’s, you know those little ones that turn into the mind numbing charlie horse type cramps. It always scares me because they are just so painful. So we will see how it goes when I get home and go for my walk with Sean. I might end up 3 streets away from the house screaming bloody murder…. OH the neighbors will love that. I can see it now on the Facebook Community bitch page “some crazy women is laying on the side walk screaming at the top of her lungs…..please go home ma’am I am going to have to report you to the HOA”!! Those pages are so dramatic sometime it is actually kind of comical. I guess I will take my potassium, magnesium, and calcium supplement before I go out. Well This is gonna be kind of short tonight So I will catch y’all tomorrow!

 

Egg Fast Day 2

Ok Y’all here we go day 2!! I am feeling pretty good. Sean and I didn’t go for a walk last night because he had some stuff to do. So i just ran up and down my stairs a couple times, got that heart rate up. Thought I was gonna die…. but here I’am day 2! So I told you my current weight (CW) as of yesterday morning. I will not be weighing every day because that’s how people go crazy, but no really it will just irritate and discourage if you watch the scale like that. I did how ever weigh my self again this morning just to see how the start off was…and drum roll please…..CW as of this morning 230.4!! Wow 8 lbs y’all!! I know most of that is probably water weight, but that’s ok! Let the water come off cause the next to come off is the fat.

Sean and I are going for a walk tonight. Its nice its something I love doing with him. We walk talk and connect, which is nice now-a-days. Its always fantastic to have the support of your spouse and family. It does make the process a little bit easier. So i have my eggs and all my water. I did not get anymore water in last night so my count for yesterday was 4.5 bottles of H2O. Going to try harder today to get at least 5 in before I head home. I will try to get my squats in too. I think I found some exercises I can do here at work. These are exercises that don’t need any equipment and don’t take up a lot of room. 

These are the ones I am going to attempt daily: 20 Jumping Jacks, 20 Lunges, 20 Pushups, 20 squats, and then repeating it 3 to 5 times. I think those will be good while I am at work. And then daily walks at night with Sean or on my treadmill for a hour when I get home. I wish there was a way to get the extra skin off other than having to have surgery. I don’t mind that I will have extra skin because at least i will be healthy. I have talked to Sean about it , and he always says he will still love me flabby skin or not. But you know you always want to be as sexy as you can for the person you love. I have no doubts he will love me no  matter what. I think its more of a issue with me and it has always been that I have low self confidence. Not everyone sees that in me, only people that are really close know about it, like my sister Erin and my mom and of course Sean.  

I am trying to be under 200 lbs by the time Sean and I have to go to Florida for our daughter Charleigh’s graduation in May. Yes we have 2 daughters graduating, our daughter Faith (in June) and Charleigh. I like to have goals, I keep them small. I think if I make big goals it gets harder to achieve, which then starts to become discouraging. So I make a small goal and achieve it and then make another one.  So I have got my 20 squats and 20 pushups done but I only did them once.  When I am at work it is sometimes busy and i don’t get any time to work out and then there’s times when I have all day.  As of right now I am working on my fifth bottle of water. YAY me!! I think I have pee’d enough water to fill a pool! Maybe  I will have lost another 8 lbs of water weight HA HA! 

After my squats though my legs did not burn, which probably means I need to do more. I can do more tonight,maybe after our walk. I am not going to weigh again until Friday (fingers crossed LOL). Well Y’all catch ya tomorrow!!

 

 

Egg Fast Day 1…..Lord give me strength

Egg Fast Day 1

Good Morning y’all!! Thanks for joining me! I definitely can use the support and strength to get this going. Egg Fast day 1 is probably going to be the hardest. My body will start to hate me as it figures out what is happening. I don’t know how long it will take to switch in to ketosis. I am hoping it don’t take long and I can get through the Keto Flu symptoms fairly fast. 

So Last night I went home and made some egg muffins. Of course after I made mine I found some great recipes on Pintrest. I will be making those later this week. My muffins I made last night were egg, ham & cheese (6 of them) and egg, sausage & cheese (6 of them).  I haven’t figured out what type of schedule I will be doing it on. I have had only water so far this morning. I  think I want to fast as long as I can, and only eat in a small 6 hour window. So it would be a 18 hr fast and then eating my egg muffins in my 6 hour window. 

The benefits of this fast are said to be, fat burning, increased metabolic rate, controlled blood sugar levels and appetite, and detox of your entire body. I will be trying to keep my calorie intake under 1500 during my 6 hour window. I am also trying to get in at least 8-9 bottles of water. Ugh I hate water!! People are always like “why do you not like water?” I don’t like it because it has no taste, no flavor! I add Propel single packs to my waters. They are no sugar, zero calorie and they taste good to me anyways. My favorite flavors are the raspberry lemonade (this one is hard to find), grape, and kiwi strawberry. I guess if it helps get the water in me then that’s all that matters. Don’t get me wrong if its 90 degrees out and i am thirsty I will drink a nice ice cold water and have no proble

So I didn’t eat anything until 2pm. I ate two of my egg muffins an then had two more at 4pm. I got 3 bottles of water in so far, working on my 4th. Its only 6:23 pm right now so I have a few more hours to get at least 3 to 4 more in today.  I also got 30 squats in!! I will slowly increase this too and hopefully add some other exercises in. I may see if Sean will take a walk with me when I get home. Saturday was daylight saving so now when I get home at 7:30 its still light out. And the weather is beautiful here in south Texas today 64 degrees! BTW my current weight (CW) this morning was 235.8!!!! Ugh oh god give me strength!! 

SO on to Egg Fast day 2…………. Catch y’all Tomorrow!!

Eggs-cuse me Fatty

Ok here we go!! I fell off the Keto wagon due to a lot of issues. First I got sick with the FLU. Sorry not Sorry but when you are sick you eat what you can stomach. I missed 4 days of work and I didn’t do any shopping. Sean was making my food and I was trying to make it easy on him. This is not a excuse its just the facts. Well after I felt better enough to go back to work I didn’t have any money to get what i needed to sustain my WOE. And i just did not try. I was just being the lazy fatty that got me here. So I have to get my ass back in gear. I gained….Yes I said I gained and now will have to work harder at getting it off.

Since my older kids went back to Florida we are changing rooms around in our house. right now my daughter Faith has her own room and my three boys have shared a room. Faiths room is always so cold and she hates it. Jaxson is always super hot, so he will be getting his own room (faiths room)and it will be nice and cool the way he likes it. Faith will get the boys’ old room because its usually warmer. The two little boys Justin and jaiden will get the room that was Sean jr’s. They will be still sharing but they are okay with it. So once they get that all moved around today, my wonderful husband is redoing the living room up there in to a exercise room. I have a treadmill and a stationary bike that he will be setting up, up there. And he will be arranging the furniture and hanging a TV on the wall. He is so handy!! And hopefully they will be working on that today!

This way i can go up there before work or after and walk or ride to help work the rest of my fat ass off. I don’t get much exercise while I am at work. I am here for twelve hours a day, in a little room. It gets boring. I can do some exercises here, I will have to figure out what i can do on a daily to help. Monday I am starting my WOE again. I am starting with a Egg Fast. what is a Egg Fast you ask? Well its something that will kick my body into Ketosis like a Bugatti drove by Mario Andretti.  Egg Fast consist of basically you only eat eggs, healthy fats and full fat cheese for 3-5 days in a row. You’re supposed to eat at least 6 eggs a day and 1 tablespoon of fat for each egg consumed. The number of ounces of cheese should not exceed the number of eggs eaten each day. I usually do this for every day i am at work but I am working so many days I will have to limit to 4 or 5 days. Then you eat regular meals (Keto meals) on the days your off the Egg Fast.  Every time I do this it works wonders. And i never knew there so many ways you can make eggs.

I also use Egg Fasts to break stalls in my losing. Some other things about the egg fast are; *An egg should be eaten no later then 30 mins after waking ( i actually don’t do this I try to go as long as possible with out eating anything. I usually don’t start eating until 1 or 2 pm and eat til 8 pm)

* Meals should be every 3 hours but no later than 5 hours.

* You should eat on schedule at least one egg, even if not hungry.

* You should eat at least 6 eggs no more then 10 a day

* Last egg should be eaten at least 3 hours before bed

* Diet soda is allowed up to 3 cans a day ( i don’t do soda at all)

* Low carb sauces and spices are permitted. 

I don’t know who made up these rules. Every time I look it up there are some differences but for the most part the same. You’d be surprised at all the different recipes there is fro eggs. I will blog every day to let you know how it goes and my outcome. By doing this you actually get your macronutrients balanced pretty good by the end of the day it very low carb, moderate protein, and high fat.  That’s exactly what you want on a Keto WOE. With the fact the the egg fast is practically no fiber intake (like your greens, or seeds,meals etc) I think i am going to take a multivitamin, and magnesium potassium, calcium supplement daily. You also need to have your water intake increased I would say at least 7-8 bottles of water ( i drink bottled water, 16.9 oz. they water around here is nasty). 

The Egg Fast is restrictive and because of this my body will have a adjustment period where I will feel like poop. This is called the Keto Flu. When your body is transitioning in to ketosis. It really makes you feel crappy. You start to experience energy drop,and

More Water!!

fatigue, your head starts to hurt, your muscles cramp and ache, you might feel dizzy and focus and brain fog will be real. Your body gets cranky for a minute. Once your body figures out how to go from burning glucose (carbs) to burning fat for energy the symptoms go away and you feel great!! 

So this should be fun! I will tell you eggxactly (ha see what i did there) what i have to eat every day and if  i get any exercise. I will weigh myself Monday and find out the damage and then weigh again on Friday and see how this goes. I am a bit scared to get on that scale to be honest with y’all!! Hopefully it is all its cracked up to be. Oh the Puns are just flowing haha! While I was looking at recipes for my egg fast I came across a blogger Kickin Carb Clutter that blogged about after doing the Egg Fast you should transition back to low carb WOE carefully. They wrote that doing a Egg Fast may cause the body to work like a allergen elimination plan. It may cause your body to have a violent food reaction. Doing this type of diet plan puts your body in a deeper state of ketosis and may eliminate some foods you may be sensitive too. As you add food back in you may have a reaction to the foods you may not have realized you were sensitive too. I have never had such a reaction but i will be more cautious just in case. 

I am really actually excited to get back to this WOE. I think i will feel so much better physically.  Well cant wait to get started tomorrow, I will be doing some meal planning when i get home. YEE HAW!!  Alright y’all I will catch ya tomorrow!